Insomnia

You deserted me when I needed you.

I couldn't find you,
And the harder I tried,
The further you seemed.
I felt so alone, you wouldn't comfort me.
You wouldn't share my bed.

I told myself I didn't need you.
I tried to work, but I couldn't concentrate.
I didn't need to eat, but I ate anyway.
I went for walks, did sit-ups and push-ups,
But you wouldn't come back to me.

And then, at the worst possible time, you returned.
People started laughing at me,
But I couldn't hear them.
I didn't care, I wanted you so much.
You took me away and swallowed me whole.

Right in the middle of a class.

(C) Mark Callanan 2005

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